My Birthday celebration

Happy Birthday to me!not today, but last monday, 31st may 2010.oh..dah 28 dah..ticktock2..cepat jer masa berlalu kan.I wish this year will bring me more happiness (dengan kehadiran bakal cahaya hidup kami), dimurahkan rezeki, dipanjangkan umur, dan dipermudahkan segala urusan..amin.

Ok, highlight of the Birthday, of coz la wat I had for my Birthday and how it being celebrated kan..hoho.Menyambut Birthday adalah sungguh menggembirakan. But, since I become a mother, terfikir,y during birthday we just celebrate the Bday gal or boy. How bout the mother..bukankan ibu yg bersusah payah melahirkan kita pun patut draikan?hehe..hmm, hope my kids will read this post in the future!*mummy pun nak present!keke* oh..tak payah present2..for me, I just say thanks and hug my my mom with love. Itu pun dah cukup menggembirakan ibu kan :)

How my Hubby surprised me during my 28th Birthday??..of coz every year ada surprise kan.sukanya!Ok..before i tell you the real Birthday celebration and present..i better tell u the planned one..nak jugak citer!ok..begini kisahnya..

Lately i always sick, biasala org pregnant, demam la,selsema, discharge, perut kembung,senak perut.Dipendekkan cerita, pada hari rabu yg indah, my Hubby like insist me to go and see doc, di mana nak ikutkan few days lepas tu, on staurday, I will have an appointment with doc. At that point of time, takla sakit sgt sampai nak kena jumpa doc sgt kot. rasanya bleh tunggu. But my hubby insist sgt. So, sbg isteri yg taat lagi baik, menurut perintah :)Rupa2nya ada udang sebalik mee. He insist me to go becoz he wan to curi2 request something from doc. So,while, I had my blood test, my hubby went n c doc informing her that:

Hubby: " Doc, I plan to bring my wife for Holiday. I need your letter and approval for air travel."

Doc: " Oh, tak boleh, I'm not allow her to go. I'm so sorry, I cant. (dengan muka serius giler and sgt concern walaupun selama nih doc nih selalu senyum jer)

Actually, lebih kurang la dialog mereka ni.As being told by my hubby, doc told him dat she had a patient, japanese. She fly bak to Japan ok lagi. But when she travel bak to M'sia, sebaik plane touch down, she trus bleeding and gugur. Doc mentioned her uterus "tercabut" yer tercabut yer dari rahim..gerunkan.My hubby dengar terus jadi takut giler la..or maybe doc sajer tell that story to really convince my hubby not to bring me anywhere that may harm me. Furthermore, I had history of stillborn. So, must be more extra careful.So, she tak dare to take the risk kot.

Okla, apa sebenarnya my hubby's plan. Hm..sedih tau..Actually, he plan to bring me to Bali, he showed me he planned to book The Kozy villa to stay. Oh..melepas!huhu. Sumer plan dah ready, tinggal surat from doc and terus book.tapi memandangkan doc tak bagi. sumer plan kecundang. Heard of that, it makes my heart remuk dan luluh (hoho). I plan ber'babymoon' before I deliver..camno?Nak bercuti luar M'sia.nak jugak!nak jugak!

Okla, seperti biasa lupakan air yg keruh..so, end up I decided to celebrate my Birthday in ipoh. memandangkan rindu sgt nak balik.On Sunday nite, day before my Birthday, my hubby take me out, jalan2..rupa2nya, he plan with my family to arrange a bbq dinner for me with a Bday cake all la.So, if I'm at home, nampakla kan all the arrangement. So, balik jer rumah around 8pm, he bring me to our room straight. hubby suh dok bilik diam2..haha..mesti la berbunga.yeay ada surprise!then he open the door, my family all with cake sing Bday song for me..oh, terharu biru..tiup2, potong kek sumer, then hidung terhidu bau yg sedap. Oh bbq!(Dear, actually I mmg teringin nak buat bbq lagi after that day. But tak pernah cakap kat u. Thanks for make one of my wish come true:))..makan2 sumer, ajak jiran depan n sebelah, hoho..umur 28 thn still buat bday party ni!sonok kan..

Ok, after I cut my cake, my family keep on asking.."mana presentnya yusri..nak tgk"..oh, so do i Darling..mana2??haha..

Okie sblm tu..My cake and me and my baby, comel tak tummy i(tak nampak pun kan)..keke ...










Next...present from hubby darling..



















oh..wat a lovely necklace....thanks darling..i really LIKE and LOVE it!awal tahun dapat bracelet, bday dapat necklace, lepas nih nak rantai kaki buleh?hik2..demand plak ni..

Pas hubby pakaikan rantai tuh..i pun pegi dapur nak makan..hubby panggil lagi.."eh, yg lain tuh taknak"..i toleh..uwaaaaaaaaaaa...ada lagi presents la..suka GILER!

jeng..jeng..



















My wallet prior to this was 10 yrs aged..lama kan..lama giler..dunno y i LOVE sgt that wallet..n I think this yr is the time for me to change wallet..n I been eyeing on few wallets from charles keith..mana tau my hubby bought one for me..suka dear.Muah!


And the last one..it made me break into tears..



















Remember my previous post bout our outing..Survey on baby stuff..That day,we saw this heart to heart thingy. for parents who experience a stillborn, especially like us..yg tetiba jer check tgk baby dah meninggal for 3 days for unknown reason. This thingy is very important to us.we can listen to baby heartbeat as frequent as we want. And with this, we can monitor and ensure at least by listening to baby heartbeat, we know our baby is safe and healthy inside there..and the best part is, both mummy and daddy can listen to the baby heartbeat togetha..wat a wonderful moment kan.We can even record the sound of our baby- the hearbeat, kicking etc..sweet sgt. We never thought that they will create such thing to listen to baby heart..initially, we plan to just buy doctor punya stethoscope. Hmm,anyway, masa nampak this thing..i am so excited, but it quite pricey for me..so, teruja tuh berhenti di situ sajer..and cuba lupakan utk saat tu..that's y I din mention it in my previous post...I was so surprise that my hubby belikan for my Bday present!I'm speechless..Oh, mummy n daddy can listen you baby darling, soon! Oh, we can listen to baby heartbeat clearly as early as 21 weeks..but memandangkan i just in my 17 weeks. So,just dengar bunyi soft thumping..takper, just another few weeks to go..but since then, sebelum tidur, sometimes, i sajer pasang to listen to my baby darling and talk to her/him..wat a wonderful moment..(dear, not that I love this present more. I suka sumer..tapi biasala, tgh pregnant, when it is related to baby's stuff, a mother will be more emo,thus more story to tell :))

So, before I end this long entry, i present you my hubby darling yg sedang berbbq!















Thanks dear..Thanks for the presents and the bday bbq party(party ker)..I love it.You really made my day..muah!!

Love..

Dear,

I belek2 things in my computer and I found this..I almost forgot bout it.I wrote it last 2 years and never show and share it wif u.I just keep to myself.If I'm not mistaken i wrote it when we have a fight masa couple2 dulu( asam garam dalam hubungan ). I wrote it to cool me off n try to look at a bright side of the fight. Argument, misundertanding and fight are not always lead to negative side.... But,doesn't mean that we must attract those negative things.:)..

Just to share..


When u start loving someone..
U will accept everything bout him..
U will think that he is the wonderful person u ever know.
Everything bout him seems so perfect
And U never want to think how ur life will be without him..

When sometimes he hurt u..
U try to hate him..
But u cant..
U dun wan to lose him..
U dun wan to lose all the happiness and love that he gives to you..
U try to tell to yourself that he never mean to hurt u..
He loves u more than u ever think..

It makes u realise that sometimes loving is hurting
The more u love him.
The more u will hurt..
Coz u never want to share his love with others..
U want him to be yours n only yours..
But the fact , he belong to others too..

Sometimes u think..
U understand him so much..
But sometimes u dun..
But the facts..the more u try to understand him..
The more u will confuse
It’s not that u dunno about him at all..
It just that sometimes, what u understand about him..
It’s not what u want to know and want to accept..
It is not a bad feeling..
It is normal for two different people who want to share their life together,,
It teaches and makes u learn what love mean
Love is sharing and accepting each other with all your heart

If u never being hurt in ur love journey..
U will not cherish and appreciate the love
Thus, never blame each other for any fight..
The fight bring you closer to each other,,
And allow you to understand each other better than before..

Thus, love is not complicated as u think..
It’s not as hard as you think..
Take it easy and cherish it..
Trust to your heart,,
As it will tell you what is a true love..


1 Jan 2007

Nasi goreng kasih sayang

Hmm..today,my hubby n i have spent most of our time watching tv. We watched 4 movies non stop @ astro starting ard 2pm. We start with Michael collins (citer perang), wild hogs (damn funny), jurassic park 3, 27 dresses..Actually, he still watching movies now while I'm drafting this post and it is Sunday morning!!ohh..tak ngantuk lagi katanya n he asked me to accompany him. But, I am too tired to watch tv dah, macam muak..

Just now, i made tomyam fried rice for my hubby.sayangku lapar..hoho..another simple cook after my keropok ketam.Adoi!kesian hubbyku..but he finished all.so happy!meaning that my fried rice was nice and finger licking good!if not nice, he wont finshed all..makan skit jer.:(..

Fried rice..i know it is so damn easy to make it, letak jer serbuk adabi ker apa,settle! But with kasih sayang yg dicurahkan while cooking..it make the taste different and bertambah sedap! Agree dear? ;)...

Packing time!

At last, Yusri find a better house for us to rent.He has been looking for few houses d.Not dat easy, most of the places that he viewed, sumer tak ok..end up, yesterday, he viewed a house at Pelangi Damansara Astana and everything looks find. It's a partly furnish condo. The owner is malay and previous tenant pun malay, so takyah samak2 la..The house furnished with fridge,washing machine, kitchen cabinet,3 air conds and bed.kira okla..

So, we gonna move this coming saturday..I have to pack my things and listed out the household items that we need to bring from Ipoh ie kettle, plate etc

So, I will continue my confinement there. My mom will come along :)..

Hmm..we choose damansara area coz it will be nearest to EY damansara..hoho..yeah, I planned to transfer to EY KL after my leave.But, I have yet to inform my boss. Kira we make this plan and arrangement with an assumption that my boss will approve my transfer and everything will be finalised within a month, which is kira2 around august and I can move there permanently and stay with my lovely hubby..

Kalo boss tak kasi..I will try so hard, berdrama air mata ke..apa2 yg patut la..
I dun care..I will make it happen soonest possible..transfer to EY KL is my next goal..pray everything will turn well.Amin...Anyway, i can oni voice out to my boss after I come back from leave, 13 july

okla, got to start packing my things..tata..

Sunday, 31st May 2009..

It's my Birthday!!I am 27 now..wohoho..

On Saturday nite...around 10 pm..I played cards with my hubby and my nephew (sling card nama gamenyer, but no gambling ;))..main punya main..ehem2, as usual I am the winner (sorry dear and jaim ek, cuba lagi .hik2..jgn mara..) ." I am the champion..of the world!"..oh sorry..naik sheh lak..ok, back to the story..around 11.55pm camtu, my hubby stopped the game..hoho, dat time i got the feeling, "dapat adiah..yeye"..hehe..eventho, before that he kept on saying, "sorry dear..no present this yr..i buy u key chain la"..i pun jawab " eh, takper2 takder adiah pun takper (konon), tapi kalo nak bagi,takmo la key chain jer " ahaks..

Happy birthday to u..happy birthday to u...after he sang that Bday song for me, he gave me clues on where my Bday present was placed. Ala2 cam treasure hunt la, tapi dalam rumah punya..The clues were:

Yusri:" ur present dekat sebelah rumah kepada barang di pakai di kaki "

Irna: hoho..tepi rak kasut..(maka I go n find it, jumpa!)

It's a towel printed with "Happy 27th Birthday Irna Wati 31 may 2009"..I'm not gonna use it..sayang..huhu

next;

Yusri : Another present is inside the black coloured items which we normally placed a very expensive and important items"

Irna: xxxxx...banyak kali gakla jawab salah..then think of, oo, inside laptop bag..

Hugo perfume set..dulu2, when I first met him, i use this perfume, then no more. .mengenang kembali nostalgia la ni :)..Irna with the Hugo smell..

The last one:

Yusri: It's placed dekat project mama n acik

Irna : wohoho..dapur!

As a winner of my Bday treasure hunt, I've been awarded with crystal medal, fewitt...written with "Happy Birthday..27..Irna Wati..31 may 2009"..huhu..terharu..

These are all the presents for my 27th Birthday..Thanks a lot dear..I Love u ..muacks!

Eventho it's a simple birthday celebration that nite...but it so so sweet..I will never forget:)

My 1st Bday celebration as Yusri's wife :)..

Friday Story...

Hmm..Last nite I was rushing for feedback report for my staff.okiela, for their good sake, rush during my leave pun takper..one thing, I have to comment in word format coz I have prob in accessing EY website.so, as alternative, they have to printscreen the feedback page, then email me..after dat, I have to comment and return bak to them. this is for the roundtable thing..okiela..tak jadi hal..but wat I'm so mad today coz, suddenly they told me they find way for me to fixed the prob so dat i can access to ey NET and redo again thru system plak..But, i said NO, I already find the alternative and gave my comments on the staff..nak fixed prob about the sytem, tggu abis cuti kang..bukan per, my celcom broadband ni dahla slow,esp during office hour..then have to solve everything by today..dah la last nite i spent the whole nite doing the feedback comment..letihla..pastu, ingat dah abis citer..received another call saying that I have to do for another 2 staff...year end report plak..adui..baru nak tidur..haih..then now, I have to wait and wait ..wat I am so mad is..y it is soooo soooo..last minute..can u tell me earlier..give me today then expect complete by today..bengang tak..haih..

Okla..forget bout dat..I suppose to be happy today..coz my hubby will be coming back to Ipoh from cyber..weekend husband n wife kan..cant wait to c him later..hmm..he just called me just now.He told me bout his final exam for d training result. Before dat he is so damn nervous..coz he said most of his answer he was a bit unsure whether correct onot.Mana tau, end result oni 6 mistakes out of 50questions.kira hebat la tu awak..if in school, can consider it as an A:) tau..sonoknya..happy for u..he said he wanna compare with others..see who has lesser mistakes..Competitive sungguh!saper ajar ;)..hik2..rindu nyer..wohoho...

Hmm..haa..another thing, we've been searching for my baby scan photos since past 2 mths.I start realised the album missing 2 weeks before find out baby dah takder.hmm, normally I will see the photos before i go to sleep:). It is so weird I can misplaced it coz normally I will put either on the drawer next to bed or maybe in my handbag( kadang2 i bring to office :))..Cari2 mmg selongkar everything la.tak jumpa.maybe she doesnt wan me to be so so sad for her..she wan me to be ready and well prepared for not be able to see her anymore..hmm..last 2 days, I suddenly asked my mom to hide some of her "important items" below the drawer in my room(sbb she dunno where else to hide it..hihi)..bukak2 jer..she find out the album..so weird becoz last time , takde pun..maybe she thinks I am ready enuf and strong enuf to c her photos after wat had happened.mmg pun, happy sgt dapat tgk gambar baby..no tears, but a smile..miss her so MUCH. The album consist of her photos since she is 2 to 5mths inside me!

Below are her last scan photos..21 wks and 6 days..my sweet little girl. Miss u baby..

Al fatihah...Amin..

A Gift From My Heart

This is my first time ber'blog2" ni..hmm..dunno wat to say in here..I never had any diary before, ada pun ..it's a very simple diary and always doing it halfway..coz too much thing to say and feel very tired to write it all..maybe by typing here in the blog, it much more simpler and more interesting..mari kita lihat..hehe..sampai bila I can maintain this blog..kikiki..cop2..kira blog ni leh consider macam diary la kan..sort of la kan..kan awak kan..;)

Hmm..okiela.Let me start with this..

Actually, this few weeks I've been thinking to give my lovely hubby a lovely present..but I dunno what n how to buy it for him, since I'm still on confinement.Nak kena ketuk kalo kuar rumah skang ni..nak arrange for online gift delivery, he is not sure of his new office address plak..Why I wanna give him a present???

Hmm..I am so greatful n thankful for having him as my husband..A gift from God.Since we knew that our lovely daughter passed away (still in my womb) on 21st April 2009, he was there with me..all the while..accompany me to go thru this sadness together. He gave me the strenght, support, love and everything that a mother and a wife needs in order to go thru the pain of losing a baby..my First and Wonderful Baby..I know he feel d pain too. But, he didn't show his sadness just to make me smile and laugh..
Let me recall..

21 April: Find out our baby is in a Heaven..
22 - 29 April: Admitted to hospital for induce treatment. But just 1cm opening..Doc ask us to go back home for me to have a rest...
10 May: Admitted again to continue for the induce treatment..
11 May: My wonderfull little daughter born @ 12.10pm, thru normal delivery

It's been a very traumatic experience for both of us..Imagine we have to stay in the labor room since 5 am till 7pm every day for 7 days..heard baby crying..erghh..hanya Allah yg tahu..how we felt at that time..luckily, my hubby are always there with me.With him by my side, I am strong to fight this feeling..Whenever I cry, he always tell me, "our baby being take care of by angels. She made this decision to leave us because she loves us..I shouldn't cry, but shud be happy and pray for her"...lots of courage words given to me..but what I know, whenever I heard it from him..I feel so calm and so happy.Eventhough we are losing our first child, but we still have each other..our love become stronger..I love u so much dear..

No words and nothing can decribe how I appreciate all the things that you do for me all this while. But yesterday , I heard of this song..and I find out the lyrics really show how I feel towards you...At first I tot I wanna download the song for you as a gift from my heart..tapi tak reti download la pulak..so, bagi lyric jer..hope u like it..

specially dedicated to my beloved husband..

Because you love me by Celine Dion..

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in youI'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
ou were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I amBecause you loved me, ooh, baby

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe, I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed becauseI was loved by you

You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Thanks dear..