Ceritera 2 mingguku yg lepas...

What happened for the past 2 weeks?

1) Too busy with work, training and meetings..penings2 n stress2.Okie, not going to talk bout works here..

2) Submitted transfer form d!waiting for KL people to reply..Expected date for transfer is 1 September..Pray hard :)

2) Due to FRS139 training and meeting in KL, I got the opportunity to stay wif my hubby for 5 days..Dari rabu sampai la Ahad.Senonot! Pagi2 pegi keje sesama, balik keje dinner sesama..best kan!

3) Bought our living and dining set sekali dgn divider cabinet.wiihooo..haih, org lain, awal2 kawin dah merasa buat benda2 ni. Both of us baru nak start on this. Yerla..dok jejauh kan..huk2..tak lama lagi dah;). Hmm, esok sampainya furnitures tu..senonot lagi!

4) Makan sedap2 wif hubby, sushi la , sup ekor la (haha..first time aritu order sup ekor. Never before in my menu list), but paling sedap tak hingat skali makan makanan padang for our lunch kat Restoran Sari Ratu..nyum2..Meh letak gambar skit ;)




My Hubby!









Me :)..amacam..ada kurus skit tak?hik2..








lauks2 : ayam ala2 percik,talapia bakar,sayur kailan,bergedel,rendang daging n paru.











jus apricot ngan chocolate syrup..I like!







jus durian ngan strawberry syrup..(dear, u ingat tak u minum sampai abis tak ingat i?utk pertama kalinya...hik2)







Nyum2..mmg leh bagi 9/10.But, we prefer masakan padang kat restoran belakang menara public bank. We gave 10/10 for dat one :)





hmm..apa lagi..that's all for now I think :)

I miss my hubby

I miss my hubby so much!..can't wait to c him dis weekend.."tggu ku di stesen keretapi ya..;)".

Terharu biru dgn boss!

I have passed my transfer form to my Director dah!when i passed her the form, she din say much.she put my envelope aside and continue chatting bout job related matter..huk2..sedih gak.she like ignoring my request.tapi rupa2nya, itu sumer salah faham...she is so concern bout me!actually, she really dun mind recommending me to transfer to EYKL. If can, end of this mth pun boleh.But..since she already assigned me with one special audit job, she really hope if i can settle that job b4 i leave..coz it's hard for her to tell client that i will do the job half way n replace by other ppl coz it's a very P&C ala2 top secret nyer job.handle by few ppl oni (AM,Director & patner jer).. siap client initially oni wan director level and above to involve with this case, but my director request client to include me in the team.hoho.rasa diri nih penting lak! (cewah, panjang lak citer part ni.adoi, ok enuf memuji diri)..

So, after explaining how she wan me to stay until the case settle, which is estimated by end of august..boleh plak, I asked her to make it earlier, being so demanding pulak!!!adoi..after dat conversation...i felt so damn guilty.I think she being so reasonable d by allowing me to go dat early.Normally, it will take around 2 to 6 mths from the date u apply for the transfer..ini, dia bagi 1 bulan lebih jer, dah mintak lebih..so, i pun shoot her an email to thank and apologise to her bout dat matter (emo lak)..

emailnyer berbunyi lebih kurang begini:
"I would like to thank you for your support n consideration regarding my transfer. I am sorry for being so demanding just now n really appreciate that you r willing to release me that early eventho our office currently are short of experienced staff. I will be ok to leave by end of August. .bla2.. (sudah2..poyo tak?.keke)

Tapi lega la lepas tu..tak rasa bersalah. N boss pun reply saying that she understand my situation n glad that I inform her my intention upfront.fuh..lega…

Tak abis dgn tu..my colleague told me that when I was hospitalized, she is so concern n worry bout me..can say everyday she asked bout my condition n talked bout me to the staff. They noticed whenever she talked bout me, her eyes like full of tears…ala2 berair gitu.sbb risaukan, I have to wait for 1 mth baru baby leh kuar.huhu..Terharunya...coz she is not the emo2 type..then, they said she din bother much bout my halfway job after that incident. I think, she even asked the staff to follow up my job independently n dun interrupt me dat much..huhu

I still remember, as soon as I find out Sofea passed away.. I cry n keep on saying “tak mungkin, baby gerak2 banyak last 2 weeks masa scan.baby sihat.baby naper…baby naper..”masa tuh I still lie down on the bed while doc scanned my belly. Pastu bila dah bangun, then dok kat kusi..doc asked me bila ready to deliver baby?..know wat my answer.. “saya banyak keje kat office, camner keje banyak..saya nak kena settlekan” tapi cakap sambil nangis2 lagi tu..doc n my hubby pun geleng kepala seeing me aritu..nangis2 then sempat cakap pasal keje..haih..tak taula..mmg spontan jer mind tuh..maybe otak dah lama ingat keje..keje..dan keje..kot..but glad my hubby help me to explain to my Director n explain my concern on my half way job..(sbb mmg banyak..peak kan)..tuh yg my Director bertambah emo kot after knowing dat..

Haih..panjang berjela lak post ni..kesimpulannya..terharu biru wif my Director! Thanks boss! so, esok jumpa patner lak..moga patner pun paham n lebih supportive..Sbb patner recommendation lagi power..

Tapikan, ni baru Ipoh office's response. Even if they agree on d transfer, but it still up to EYKL whether they wan me onot..or whether they have any vacancy there.I apply for BAS (business advisory services),maybe xplore something diff from audit..katanya ada vacancy.Bertawakal jer la.Apapun, I have tried my best.

Akhirnya bos dah tau!

Akhirnya yesterday I have informed my Director that I wan to transfer to KL!lega rasanya..biasala bos,she a bit reluctant to allow me to transfer n giving excuses saying that KL freeze hiring experienced people..but i told her maybe can just try first kan. takkan make conclusion without trying..then she also said that she planned to assign me for a listed job somewhere around next mth as they are short of ppl..haih..i keep on saying sorry throughout d conversation.later, dah start a listed job..have to wait for wat? another 2 or 3 mths lagi?ohh..thinks that too long for me..not that i dun wan to und their problem..but this is my life n i think it's the time for me to be sellfish a bit..takmau pikir2 n utamakan pasal keje lagi. I think as a good wife, it's time for me to think bout myself n my hubby (it's not that i dun think or consider bout him before;))I mean..it's time for us to stay closer n go thru d days TOGETHER..so, today i plan to submit d transfer form n see wat else my Director wanna say...hopefully no more excuses cos I am so DETERMINE to go..

Khaira Ir-Sofea Khairil Yusri..

Initially, we have decided to give this name to our baby..Tapi, sbb baby passed away, my MIL advised namakan ikut nama anak Nabi Muhammad..At that moment, we think it's a very good idea..So, we choosed Siti Fatimah. Tapi, lepas deliver tu, I have this strong feeling to stick to "Khaira Ir-Sofea"...sebab2nya:

1) we have decided if we have daughter, nama akan start with Khaira Ir-xxxx. So, I feel bad kalo nama dia nanti lain dari yg lain. Nampak macam perbezaan kat situ..taknak macam tu :(

2) Sofea maknanya bersih,suci..n my baby mmg suci bersih. takder dosa pun..bidadari syurga..:)

3) when people asked me wat is my baby's name.. I hardly to tell "siti fatimah". Mesti nak explain panjang berjela dulu..y i choosed that name, n initially bagi nama apa sumer..

4) n kalo citer pasal baby, mesti sebut baby jer..tak sebut nama dia..n again, bila nak sebut siti fatimah..mesti rasa lain..

5) if i pray for her or thinking bout her..my heart n mind mesti fikir nama sofea tuh..n like bahasakan diri dia as sofea..n not siti fatimah..

6) naluri seorang ibu kuat mengatakan..nak nama tu..

Tapi, it doesnt mean that I dun like "siti fatimah" name or wat..maknanya kan baik jugak.cuma macam sbb2 yg mentioned tadila..naper i am so reluctant to name her as siti fatimah..

Actually, after deliver, i did asked my hubby quite few times gak, can we name her bak as Khaira Ir-sofea instead of Siti Fatimah..my hubby kata..boleh, coz masa baca talkin sumer, imam tuh tak sebut nama..maybe sbb baby kut. Then, dekat baby nyer birth certificate pun takder nama atas reason stillbirth...tapi,hubby kata.."takper,kita letak nama siti fatimah.coz baby kita tu lain dr yg lain".hubby told me wif a smile..n everytime seeing that smile, terus rasa..hmm..okla,better guna nama tu..

n kelmarin..fikir lagi..n bgtau hubby lagi.coz terpk nanti kalo buat batu nisan for baby, I really want her name to be written as Khaira Ir-Sofea...n i better asked my hubby again b4 it's too late..N this time. My hubby agreed..n I'm so happy n rasa macam lega sgt...Thanks dear...

n kali ni, i feel very2 happy to announce that my daughter's name is Khaira Ir-Sofea Khairil Yusri!!!..when ppl asked or whenever I'm talking bout her, I will just say Sofea n no unnecessary elobaration lagi dah..or ber'baby2' jer..

Mummy n daddy love Khaira Ir-Sofea..Al-Fatihah..

Sebelum dan selepas..

Uwaa..takleh terima hakikat..

SEBELUM..

(2 bulan pregnant..)










SELEPAS

(2 bulan lepas bersalin)




uwaaa...









maybe angle ni nampak kurus skit..ye ke? ;)






Nampak tak perbezaan muka tuh..tgk muka jer..badan takyah citer la..muka pun dah..uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Tp leh tak nak salahkan tudung..sbb aritu pakai anak tudung kecik..tertarik ke belakang..tuh nampak muka besor..leh tak nak assume camtu..
uwaaa lagi..uwaaa...

Last weekend nyer xtvt..

hoho..this coming friday nite, we will be going bak to Ipoh..next week dah keje. huhu.kembali jadi weekend husband n wife :(..

last saturday, i had lunch wif my frens lia, oya , muni & maya at California Pizza. seronok btul meet d gals..lama dah tak gossips n chat wif frens. imagine la, almost 3 mths, memerap kat umah n lama tak berkomunikasi dgn dunia luar. My comm skills pun dah pudar..adui..while meeting my frens..hubby baca buku kat kinakoniya.sempat la hubby baca abis satu buku.

Abis lunch, jalan2 wif my hubby, lunch kali ke 2 kat little penang lak (sian hubby lapar, dia takmo bgn dari kusi kat kinakoniya tuh takut org amik).Then, bought a new sandal coz my foot was so pain pakai high heel shoe.dah lama tak pakai high heel..huhu..sampai luka2 la kaki. nak lawa nyer pasal, sakit pun tahan..akhirnya..tak terdayo den.

Pastu balik umah rehat.Malamnya pegi cineleisure, tgk transformer show kul 9.15. My hubby quite dissappointed with the movie..slow n kelam kabut katanya. apapun, both of us happy spending time together.

Ahad plak, melepak jer kat rumah.tgk tv together..patutnya, petang plan pegi jogging.tapi, dua2 cam malas..nak rehat2 jer kat umah.so, bisala routine weekend.masa for exta pamper myself.self spa from head to toe...hoho..n i involved my hubby skali. 'mask' kan muka hubby.wpun,in d beginning, hubby reluctant gak..tapi, mmg rasa best sgt dapat me'mask'kan muka hubby.hmm, simple jer xtvt nya. tapi, rasa sweet n so great doing it togetha..



Comel ni :)

Sad day for a mother of stillborn..

Yesterday, I went to tesco wif mama, bought groceries. Before shopping, we stopped at a cafe inside the tesco mall for our lunch 1st. We were starving..hm..the waitress very nice n friendly. When i wanna pay d bill, she told me this with a very gentle smile " kak, bulat perut akak" (meaning that she thinks that I am pregnant, n she is happy for it)..i just replied her with a smile.

Inside the tesco, while shopping, i saw this 2 preggy ladies.. lady A, she walked while softly rubbing her pregnant belly..lady B, she walked while eating the ferrero roche which she is still yet to pay for it.craving sgt kot..

Not oni dat, tesco is having promotion for baby items until next week..so,lots of cheap items for a newborn baby. eventho i dun have one, but no harm looking at it kan..bila dah tgk, rasa nak beli pun ada.but...

N tak abis dgn tu..I had my breakfast dis morning while watching TV, and kuar iklan gugu gaga erra. It not stop there..I surf net, wanna read gossips bout artist,open murai.com n it keep on prompting gugu gaga erra nyer advert at the main menu..haih..

I cant deny, I am not dat strong enuf sometimes..my heart cries, my eyes full of tears..hati tersentuh with wat had happened n wat i saw..if I'm still pregnant, maybe my belly is so big now n counting days for my due date which is expected on 1 Aug ..but, the fact, I am a mother now n have delivered my stillborn baby..

No wonder lots of article saying dat most of a mother of stillborn baby, will want to get pregnant again as soon as they are fully recover. I feel d same way too..It is undescribe emotion when I saw a baby and preggy ladies. Eventho I accept n redha for wat had happened, but deep down inside my heart, I wish I can touch, hold n kiss my baby..n do things that a mother will do..Imagine, U've been informed everything is ok, u had buy things 4 ur baby n dream of things that u will do together with ur baby and suddenly all the hope disappears, just like dat with no sign..I really pray that Allah will give me another chance..

Most of people around me, advise me to get pregnant after one year..hmm..but, i think i cant wait that long. luckily my doc told me dat my condition is getting better and it is ok to have a baby after this 3 mths..maybe ppl will say, why so rush..masih muda.For me, as long as doc told me that it is no harm to get pregnant again, i dun care wat others will say. I am lucky coz my hubby understand me n always there to support me.. but apapun, it still up to Allah willing.

*Mommy recite Al Fatiha for baby..amin*

Kerepek pisang utk dijual..

puasa n raya dah nak dekat..hmm..dulu2 masa kat uni, pernah cuti time pose..jual roti jala kat pasar ramdhan. dapat la beli desktop (second hand la tapi) n display cabinet utk mama n duit raya (kira ok la tuk student)..

zaman keje2 lak, tak ingat first or 2nd yr keje, jual kuih raya.buat kuih chipsmore n kuih dam. jual kat org opis and kat pasar ramadhan (masa tuh mama niaga kat pasar ramadhan lagi).ok la, dapat anak2 sedara beli baju raya n sendiri nyer duit raya skit..

kalo bukan time pose n raya..penah jual tudung, brooch n gelang dari korea..hmm, bila ingat2 balik.rasa cam best lak.jual tak banyak pun, dapat bantu kewangan skit2..tetiba rasa cam nak meniaga lagi.bila terkenang kegigihan dulu2 meniaga, agak kagum sebenarnya..haha.yerla, boleh lak tgh sibuk jadi junior auditor, sempat balik umah buat kuih malam2 utk jual..adui.

n skang terasa macam nak jual something lagi..nak jual kerepek pisang..hmm..sepeket rm12..okla, so far ada beberapa org je yg beli. sbb marketing kureng.actually, acik (my 2nd bro) yg meniaga ni, tapi dia macam sekerat jalan..n i think macam ok jerk kalo take over busniess tak jadik dia ni..n rasanya macam nak buat dgn tekun..amin..

so, kepada sesiapa yg ada baca blog ni, yg berminat nak beli kerepek ni, utk raya nanti ker..time kunyah2 masa pose, or kunyah2 kat opis, belikan utk mak mentua kawan2,goody pack utk kenduri ker,or utk apa2 jer..can leave ur msg here or pls spread the news..harga leh kautim kalo nak banyak...haha..

diulangi..

kerepek pisang bergula or plain..1 kg : RM12

Sambal udang + petai

hoho...

balik dari ipoh last weekend, mama bawak petai..hmm..so got an idea to ask my mom to teach me to cook sambal udang..

Bahan2:

500g udang
sebiji bawang merah
2 ulas bawang putih
cili kering (dalam tutup 1/2 blender ;))
petai(not compulsary)
satu sudu teh asam jawa

Cara2:

1) rebus cili keringyg siap dipotong n dibuang biji
2) tos n masukkan dalam blender
3) potong2 bawang merah n bawang putih n masuk dalam blender gak
4) blend sampai halus
5) Panaskan kuali n letak minyak..
6) Masukkan bahan2 yg diblend tadi
7) masak sampai cili jadi kemerah2an, pastu leh masukkan air sikit
8) masukkan asam jawa, gula, garam n ajinomoto secukup rasa
9) masukkan udang n petai..
10) kalo nak lagi best potong 1/2 biji bawang merah n masukkan skali..
11) masak udang mama kata takyah lelama..nampak dah masak udang tuh..leh angkat..

siap..senang jer kan buat sambal..hmm..mama kata kalo nak buat apa2 sambal..camnila basic masakannya..masak sambal ikan bilis ker, sambal ayam ker...hoho..

kalo tau sesenang ni...dah lama den masak awal2..